This Thing Called Life

Inspiration can come in the form of many things. Like nouns, inspirations can be people, places, things, and even ideas. For this purpose, I am going to describe my current inspirations. These are my friends, but not just any friends. Oddly enough, I've never met them in person. Yet, they continue to be there for me and do the best they can. Not only are they amazing, they are just all around amazing people. I have never been so inspired in my life by something that seems so unreal. If I was to one day lose immediate contact, or if anything was to happen to them... I would be completely devastated.

Amanda- Oh boy, where should I start. This girl is a complete reflection of what I strive to put myself to. Sure, she has her ups and downs like everyone else. But hell, she goes out of her way every single day to make not only me, but other complete strangers as happy as they can be. Her frame of mind is always generally positive, and she is outright amazing. She may not have the ideal life, with her set of problems, but she is always there. I freaking love this girl. I don't know why, but I seriously consider her a true friend. She can reach out and grasp me with her love, and make me feel useful and wanted when I am down in the dumps. I love her, our conversations, her dinosaurism, and our bambles about Mr. Clean and his little... thing. Would I do anything to know this girl in person? Yes, absolutely. If she ever seriously needed me for anything, I would be by her side in a heartbeat. Knowing she is there makes the world all the better, and being friends with her has changed my mind set forever. I may not know everything about her, and she may not know everything about me, but over time, I hope I will be able to get to know her even more. Amanda, I have one thing to say, as time passes, I know we may grow apart. But please, oh please, never forget me for I will never forget you. You have engraved yourself in my heart forever, and I will never lose sight of you.

Allen- Allen, oh allen. Where art my fair love. Boy, you be the kinkiest thing to ever set foot in my life. Whats so strange about it, is that I loveee it. I really do. I could laugh and smile for hours just thinking about you, can you only imagine the thoughts racing through my head when I actually am talking to you. I know this may sound sad, but you were/basically still are the only black guy I have ever had a full-on crush for. The only black guy I have ever found seriously cute. The only guy I have actually considered trusting with my heart, secrets, and life. Allen, why can't you live closer. You are an amazing guy, and I may not be worth the trouble or even good enough for you, but you truly deserve someone special in your life. If he doesn't treat you right, well, I'll come kick his ass. You are the sweetest thing to grace this planet. What drags me closer to you is the fact that even after endless chatter for hours we can still have a point to our conversations. I learn something new about you everyday, and for that I am thankful. If I could say anything to you in person, I wouldn't say a word. I would just hug you for an endless amount of time. I am in love with this boy. He deserves so much and has such a bright future ahead for him. You've been the biggest support system I've had in a while, minus Amanda and a few good friends here at home, and to know that you actually care about me makes a world of a difference. I love you in all honesty. You are an amazing guy, and yes I realize I've flooded this post with that, but it is so true. Allen.. in short terms, relates to everything. He is life. He is good-looking. He is supportive. Nurturing. Caring. Loving. Amazing. Himself. Above all, himself. He is an individual. He is.... allen.